The Full Story (well, the abbreviated version)
Hi Friend! Thanks for stopping by to learn a little bit more about me.
I grew up in Indiana and graduated from Indiana University in 2001 with a B.A. in French & Political Science. I moved to Baltimore where I attended The University of Maryland School of Law. I graduated from Maryland in 2004.
I moved to DC right after graduation where I lived until 2013. During my 9 years there, I practiced law and worked in corporate America.
In 2008, I had an existential crisis. I was working 70-80 hours/week and just couldn't figure out what the point was. It seemed to me that there had to be more to life than working.
Through a synchronistic event, I ended up at a Meetup at a public library in DC where a woman was going to talk about energy and then channel a spirit guide named Saint Germaine. I stayed for the first hour to listen to her talk about energy.
I loved every word she said. It all made so much sense to me.
She talked about how we're all just energy and we can use our energy to create better lives for ourselves. I had never heard anyone say anything like this in the legal profession.
I didn't stay for her second hour when she channeled Saint Germaine because I had a lot of fear-based beliefs about channeling. In case you're new to channeling, it's used in different ways in spiritual communities, but I'm using it here to mean when a person goes into a meditative state and a spirit guide speaks through them. There are many very well-known channelers including Edgar Cayce, Esther Hicks, Sanaya Roman and Duane Packer.
Thankfully, my fears of channeling didn't dissuade me from working with her.
Before I knew it, I was on a deep spiritual path. I spent the next few years learning more about energy, how to work with our Higher Selves and Souls (more expanded states of consciousness that we can access and work with), and how to work with spirit guides (aka: angels, ascended masters, light beings, and many others).
I drank up every drop. It seemed like I was finally getting deeper answers to my Qs about life. And I felt like I had a greater Purpose.
In the Spring of 2012, I was meditating and an angel named Ariel came into my meditation space. I know that's a vague way of describing it, but that's the only way I know how. She just appeared. She asked me to start channeling her and she told me that part of my greater Purpose is to work with her.
I thought it was pretty cool, but I also thought "um, I'm a lawyer. I can't tell anyone about this."
And so I didn't. I only told people who were in my spirituality circles (none of whom was a lawyer).
I practiced channeling for people I felt safe with. I loved it. A channeled message from a spirit guide is always loving and nonjudgmental. Guides will share bad news, but they say things with such love and compassion. They're here to help guide us to a better life, experience more joy, address our pains, and help us live our greater potential. As a channeler, I was accessing more expanded states of consciousness because spirit guides operate in higher dimensions. They are more expanded than we are as humans.
In 2013, however, my childhood caught up with me. You see, I grew up in a chaotic, unstable home. I hadn't ever dealt with my childhood experiences because I didn't want to.
But my body and feelings got the better of me and I needed help.
I quit my job and left DC.
I spent the next few years in therapy with my extraordinary therapist who has helped me reclaim myself. And, quite honestly, she was instrumental in me not attempting suicide. I learned so much about childhood emotional, psychological, sexual and physical abuse. I learned about childhood trauma and how it deeply impacts our development. I learned to dive deep into my feelings, sit in excruciating emotional pain, hate myself on every level, and slowly but surely come out of those awful places with so much love and respect for myself.
When I left DC, I swore off law and lawyers forever. I couldn't take the constant demand to be perfect, to always fire at 100%, to put everyone's needs above my own, the constant abusive behavior from lawyers.
However, when I moved to Austin in 2015, I felt an inner heart nudge to start working with children who had been removed from their homes by CPS due to abuse or neglect. So I did the 40-hour training and became a volunteer with a nonprofit here in Austin that helps kiddos in the child welfare system.
What's ironic about my role as a guardian ad litem is that I work with lawyers all of the time. And I'm in court regularly. So much for swearing off law and lawyers forever.
And I love my volunteer work! Well, I don't love that children are being hurt and it's my deepest desire that all children grow up in loving, supportive homes, but we're not yet at that place in human development. But the kiddos are amazing. Every single one of them teaches me how to be a better person.
As I've been around lawyers since 2015, I've noticed commonalities between lawyers here doing advocacy work and lawyers in DC representing well paying clients.
They all wish their experiences of practicing were different.
Everyone wants more free time, more time with their families, less unsatisfying work, less David and Goliath situations, more work that feels meaningful, more civility in the law, a sense of greater Purpose in what they're here to do. In short, lawyers want a more heart-centered legal profession where everyone is valued and treated with respect and dignity.
I sat with it for a long time and it slowly became clear that my greater Purpose is to support lawyers to help them find greater peace with their work.
Because I used to practice law, I understand the lawyer experience. Which is often vastly different than other professions.
Because I'm a student of spirituality, I can incorporate spiritual teachings into my work. Things like accessing our gut knowing, seeing with more clarity how situations can work out, being able to tell more easily who's telling the truth and who's lying.
Because I grew up in an unloving home and have spent years in therapy + learning about trauma, I can empathize with pain and what people need to move out of stuckness and into meaningful progress.
I still work with Ariel. And many other spirit guides. Their help is instrumental to my work.
I'm no longer embarrassed or afraid to share that I am a lawyer who channels.
Quite the contrary, I think the legal profession is in dire need of higher guidance to help us untangle complicated issues. To create a more just and equitable legal system. And to help us see ourselves and others through the eyes of love and compassion.
I love what I do and feel so incredibly blessed that it's my Purpose.
Feel free to submit a message below if you want to chat or learn more. Or even share how you're using your spiritual gifts in your legal practice. Many attorneys have told me confidentially about how they use their gifts to help their clients. I love hearing their stories.
There are so many wonderful things about how the legal profession operates. And so many opportunities for evolution.
I suspect you're a part of the group who's here to evolve law. Me too, Friend. I'm happy to see you!